Not Even Remotely

And if you ever told me I was boring
Well I could probably live with that
And if you ever thought you caught me unawares
It would be for me and not for you that I'm performing

I can't read the writing on the wall anymore
I lost the pen that wrote it all the day before
And if I ever wanted it back, then I don't anymore
And looking for it's only got me what I never wanted
Never wanted

And if I thought that intimacy was broken
Well I could probably live with that
As if there's a difference between the silence and the quiet
And what she whispers is all I ever needed left unspoken

And I can't read the writing in my black book anymore
I've lost the blood I wrote it in the day before
And if I ever wanted it back, then I just don't anymore
And looking for it's only got me what I never wanted
Never wanted

And your music in the morning
strikes me across my face
It never came together quite right
in the first place

And if you thought that I was a little too intense
Well I could probably live with that
I'm back out on those slick and noisy roads again
My hands are open, my eyes are full, and there's everywhere to turn

I can't recognize the writing in my weblog anymore
I broke the keyboard that wrote it all the day before
And if I ever wanted it back, then I don't think so anymore
And looking for it just got me what I never wanted
Never wanted, never wanted